BRAIN DEAD.

Every part of my personality has wilted away. There's nothing left inside me to keep me going. I'm literally brain dead.


I cannot focus on anything. The only thing i can even bear to think about is exercising and losing weight so that maybe the next month will be better.

I am twenty in three weeks and i am fat, lonely, not at all interesting, poor, FUCKING ugly as hell, pointless...etc. I shouldn't feel like this, but every time i realise that at one point in my life i had it all, i just know that i need to lose X amount of pounds before i know good things will happen.

I swear only i understand this. No one seems to even care to understand.

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